Monday, April 25, 2011

long time coming...

My goodness, it has been almost a year since I have blogged anything. I have not worked now for almost 4 years. Can't stand on my own for more than 2 to 5 minutes. Fibromyalgia has been killing me! Had to miss Easter because I did too much walking buying groceries and running errands Saturday. And I am still hurting very bad today from it!! It's like when you go drinking and take a couple days to recover after a big binge. At least you can quit drinking, I can't just quit living! Groceries and the DR's are the only places I get to go now.

I have been so depressed lately just thinking about all the things I have had to give up, esp now that it is spring. I can't garden or work in the yard, no planting flowers, no going to yardsales or flea markets, no festivals or fairs, no amusement parks or zoos, no Red's games or Bengals football, no fireworks (esp Labor Day in Cincy), no vacations, no more casino or boat, no more concerts, no more scrapping in Cincy with my peeps, no more shopping for clothes or just going to the Mall. How depressing is that??? I only get to go get groceries once every 2 weeks, and to Dr's appointments! Whoo Hoo, I say sarcastically!

Anyway, I am trying to find a way to make a little money, so I have my own money. I tried to sell on e-Bay, but shipping prices had went sky high and I hadn't realized it, so most of the things I sold at the beginning of the year I didn't make any money on. It all went to shipping! DUH!!! And having to haul things to the PO just about killed me, and there is always a line in there! Not Fibro friendly!

I am hoping to have a craft booth at the downtown farmers market this summer. I just need to find someone to help me set-up and tear down every Saturday. That would kill me doing it by myserlf.  I bought a nice canopy that says one person could put up, but it didn't say one "disabled" person! Maybe I can bribe Cortney with money to come and help me, but she would have to give up Friday night with her friends!

Well, I'm tired and hurting, so I think I am going to take my meds and hit the bed. I need to make some things this week for the farmers market. Hopefully when I wake up tomorrow I won't be in so much pain.

Love you all,